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Blew It!

I’m having a hard enough time losing weight, I really don’t need to complicate things by cheating every five months or so.

Mother’s Day. We had to take our daughter to the ER for something, and we were so stressed and worried about her, we just didn’t feel like prepping and cooking dinner. We didn’t feel much like doing anything except destressing. So, we made a fast food run, and now, I’m paying the consequences. I gained three pounds in a single meal…which I still don’t understand. I didn’t eat three pounds of food, and some of what I did eat is going to pass as waste. Only a tiny fraction will be used as actual food, and the rest is, not to put too fine a point on it, poo-poo. So…wth?

Oh well, I can ask all I want, the fact is, it’s not relevant. I cheated. I may have set myself back as much as two weeks, I don’t know. But the three pound gain is hard to take. Maybe some of it is water, and I’ll pass it. I’ll find out I guess.

Anyway, back up to 227.8lbs after getting all the way down to 225. *Sigh* I don’t know why I do this to myself. I’ll never get to goal if I don’t stop it. And I was just moving again!


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Yo Yo Dieting

I shouldn’t gain weight on a ketogenic diet. I’ve said that so many times during my period of using this method of weight loss, it’s making me sick of hearing myself say it.

Why does it keep happening?

Well, I suspect my cups of decaf instant coffee are the culprit. I can’t figure out what aspect of them it might be yet, but even when I only had tea at night, I’m stalled.

My wife recently finished a book on fat fasting by Dana Carpender, who’s some sort of "I’ve done this so long I’m considered an expert" ketogenic/low-carb guru. But, as much as I mock, I see the results when my loving spouse changes her diet.

Except this time. She’s increased the amount of fat she’s consuming every day but keeping her protein about the same. What that means is, she’s getting more calories than before. A LOT more calories.

Unfortunately, when she overdoes it – and it’s easy to overdo when you’re hungry – she gains weight. So if she can restrict her calories to about 1600, she seems to lose weight. Interesting to note I can’t eat 1600 calories or I gain weight. And I don’t know how to adjust MY numbers to reignite the fat loss.

So today I hit the trampoline somehow, and I’m at 229lbs. That’s UP 1.4lbs from yesterday, and once again I’m locked in my 227-229 range, bouncing around.

I’m ready to dump this and swear.


Uncontrollable Bounces

I can’t tell you how frustrating it is to be on a ketogenic diet – the benefits of which are supposed to be higher satiety at mealtime and longer-lasting satiety overall – and not be able to lose weight.

Matter of fact, I gained a bunch yesterday. 2..2lbs, from 227.6lbs to 229.8lbs. In a single day. How?

Well, I got down to 227.6 by eating only one meal. I meant to go back and eat my lunch as an after-dinner snack, but never did. I wasn’t very hungry when I did eat, either. By the time I got to dinner, though, I was hungry. I actually could have skipped lunch again, or gone with something lighter.

But no. I ate. And then I went overboard with protein at dinner. So, one day I dropped a couple of pounds, but the following day, right back up. Saturday I only consumed 849 calories. Sunday I weighed in at 227.6. That was down a couple of pounds from Saturday. But Sunday I ate a whopping 1629 calories, and THAT padded my weight to 229.8. I appear to be missing my weight from 4/6 for some reason, but I know I was in the 228.8 or 228.6 range. So the 227.6lbs was a noticeable drop.

So I don’t know what my weight will look like tomorrow, but I suppose I’ll be in the 228-229 range. And whenever I approach the 227-barrier, I’ll bounce off it again, I’m sure. If not through accidental self-sabotage, then through the trampoline effect the number seems to have. I can’t figure out how to get through it, and it not only stalls me, but propels me back toward 230lbs whenever I hit it.

It’s sort of interesting, but alarming. I don’t know whether to do a fat-fast to break through it or just stay the course. Should I adjust my numbers? If so, how? which direction? *Sigh* NO answers, anywhere.

Today I’m 229.8lbs. I pray tomorrow I won’t cross back over 230.

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February/March, 2013

This past month – the last four weeks or more – have been disastrous for me from a weight loss perspective.

I’ve gained weight more times than I’ve lost, and broke back over the 230lb mark again. I peaked around 232, and sometimes I still see that number flashing through the scale, so I’m not convinced – even though subsequent weight measurements show lower numbers – I’m distanced from it yet.

Part of the problem stemmed from the amount of cashews I ate during the initial couple of weeks. When I finally broke that addiction – a handful here, another handful there – I still gained and couldn’t figure out why. Turns out, dairy was a culprit.

I’ve been drinking what I call “camp coffee” at night instead of tea. When I want something warm to drink, I make a cup of instant coffee (which is what you take camping, hence the term “camp coffee”) and put in a big dose of cream. BIG dose. And that excess cream was causing me to either be stalled or to gain.

So with a confluence of catastrophes – the camp coffee and the cashews, which were supposed to be for my daughter – I’ve put on something like five pounds in the last month.

I don’t know whether I have a handle on the problem or not. I can tell you I passed on my St. Patrick’s Day cheat because of the amount of weight I’ve gained over the past several weeks, and if I don’t see significant recovery from here, I’m going to have to give up on the idea of ever taking a “day off” from ketogenic dieting.

Nothing like running to stand still…or go backwards. All of my commitment, hard work, and strength of will amount to exactly nothing because I don’t have the first clue what my body is doing anymore. I thought I’d be LESS insulin resistant by now.

Guess not.

I’ll check in when I have something to say. Everything’s stagnant right now. Weight today was 231.0lbs.

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Seriously, WTF?

I don’t know what’s going on. I got all the way down to 227lbs a few weeks ago, and not only have I not lost an ounce since, I’ve been gaining weight over the last several days.

I don’t what the problem is, but until I can figure it out I don’t really have much I can say here. So I’ll be ducking out of sight for a little while as I experiment with my numbers, ratios and other crap to find out what’s going on. If I ever find out, I’ll be back to report my findings so others won’t suffer the same hell I do.

This is supposed to be easy. Why isn’t it?

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You gotta be kidding me.

I’ve gain more than 2.5lbs this weekend, doing absolutely nothing different than I’ve done since August of 2012.

I discovered my weight loss slowed a few months ago, but it was steady. I was sort of okay with that, because a little loss is better than none and much better than a gain. But now I have no idea what’s going on. My blood sugar was a whopping 105 yesterday and there’s no explanation for that either, except "hidden carbs," which might have crept in.

I didn’t have as much of that yesterday though, so now I’m wondering if all the pills on Friday to fight a looming migraine back had a bigger impact than I imagined. It took several poundings and finally falling asleep early on Friday night to force the headache away. I can’t remember how many I took. But I don’t have any precedence on why the gain has continued so long afterward. Normally, there’s a one day delay between things hitting my system and weight hitting the scale. Lately there appears to be a longer lag, and if this is any indication, I have to stop marking my tracking chart the way I’ve been to now. It’s funny because I thought I knew what was happening, but perhaps I’ve been mistaken.

Anyway, climbed to 229lbs from 227lbs on Sunday; hiked to 229.6lbs today. And I’m angry about it.


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Jiggling In the Same Range

I’m stuck in that 231-232lb range for my weight since I’ve gone back on my diet. I struggled just to get back down this far, but I can’t seem to bust through the plateau this level represents. I’m up a pound, down for a couple of days, back up again, and on and on it goes. I had this before but it seems more frustrating this time, more stubborn. I can’t figure out what’s wrong either.

My blood sugar is consistently below 100, and most times is below 90. But my ketone level is really low. I measured blood ketones yesterday and found them at a dismal .6mmol, when I had 2.2mmol last weekend. What happened? I can’t be sure but I may have let carb creep get me. I have a hard time with that, since the carbs were never above 50g/day (I’m sure of that much). Nevertheless the scale, while inaccurate most times, does show the delta of the weight and it shows an uptrend.

So today I jumped from 230.6 to 231lbs. I wish I knew why. I”d love to just… stymy this. For good.